Lyrics
I've been going through Hell, man
I've been battling my demons, I'm at war with myself
I sit and I dwell on things for too long
Then I don't wanna come out of my shell
When they ask me how I'm doing, I just smile and say fine
But I ain't doing so well
But it's made me fucking colder than ever
Under pressure, I won't fold what I'm dealt
I ain't ever resting on my laurels, no
'Cause it's possible that I won't see tomorrow, yeah
And I ain't ever been the type to follow
You know I've always been the guy that's gonna get us there
Yeah, I roll like a train on the track
I'm a slave for the man and it's breaking my back
I carry all the weight and I take up the slack
When I escape from that place then I ain't going back, no
'Cause all I've ever wanted is some piece of mind
I don't know why I ever bother rolling the dice
I can't catch a break and I'm so terrified
That they'll put me in a casket way ahead of time
And I don't ever wanna see my Mama cry
And I don't ever wanna tell another lie
I've been looking for answers, I've been tryna find
Some kind of meaning or purpose in this thing we call life
But you take what you get and you get what you're given
I'm just tryna tell my story in the hope that they'll listen
I don't like the way you scrutinize my every decision
I'm just doing what I like and I don't need no permission
You're playing these games with my mind and I hate it
I need you out of my life because you're driving me crazy
I ain't gonna stick around purely for your entertainment
You played me, betrayed me
I hate this, yeah
I've been going through Hell, man
I've been battling my demons, I'm at war with myself
I sit and I dwell on things for too long
Then I don't wanna come out of my shell
When they ask me how I'm doing, I just smile and say fine
But I ain't doing so well
But it's made me fucking colder than ever
Under pressure, I won't fold what I'm dealt
Nah, they ain't ever seeing me fold
I've gotta break the mould to find gold
I've been out on the road, out in the cold, in the rain and the snow
I've gotta know which way the wind blows
(How I roll, how I roll)
Yeah, I've been blowing the smoke and I've been sipping beer
She's got a rolled up note and she's chewing off my ear
Just leave me the fuck alone, this ain't my atmosphere
I've gotta find my way home, just get me out of here
I need more than this, I'm so bored of it
The same shit happens like all the time
I'm so caught in it, I'm absorbing it
Surely there's gotta be more to life
I ain't been working this hard to keep working at bars
I'm done pouring beers and wines
I've got the world in my palms so I'm chancing my arm
Before I die, I wanna feel alive
Yeah, I wanna live my dreams, I've gotta try at least
If I died this week, I'd be kicking myself
I've gotta find my feet, I know the climb is steep
But I don't wanna have any regrets when I'm deceased
Maybe, finally, I can find the piece
That I've been tryna seek to complete myself
In my entirety, but my anxiety
It gets so fiery, it burns inside of me
It's like
I've been going through Hell, man
I've been battling my demons, I'm at war with myself
I sit and I dwell on things for too long
Then I don't wanna come out of my shell
When they ask me how I'm doing, I just smile and say fine
But I ain't doing so well
But it's made me fucking colder than ever
Under pressure, I won't fold what I'm dealt
Sam Boon
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